I have no intent of living til old age.

all i wanna do is cut. and bleed out all these feels. bleed out my  pain, anger, frustration. I am trapped. Trapped in a human body. all i want is to be free of my suffering. its not good to keep these feelings in. so its time to let them out. blood.

I feel all lost and alone even when surrounded by a ton of people. When will this end?

doorway to death

There was a time in my life when I was a wee one and I welcome death into my home. We sat down and had some coffee. He claimed a few of  my loved ones and left. He came back every few years sat in my living room and chatted with me. This year he stopped by I opened the door and said "not today", that direct refusal to death has saved me my brother. I know that one day I must open the door and watch as death slowly takes more of my loved ones. One day I shall open that doorway to death, put on my coat and take a stroll with death, leaving behind everything in this world.

Stop

Whenever people tell me to stop I immediately think of telegrams and question their sanity....